what’s the point if all we’re meant to do biologically is reproduce?
I was afraid I’d eat your brains.
it’s so easy to change a life. it could be anyone’s - yours, your friend’s, a lover’s, a teacher’s. a homeless veteran on the street, an addict, your teacher, her mother. his neighbor.
people seem to think that “changing a life” means something profound. well, it is. but not in the way some
oneone decided to portray it. it doesn’t require a profound event, and not even a profound intention. not everything big necessarily means or does anything.
changing a life is exactly what it reads like. a small alteration is a change. so is a big one.
if you pick up all the little fabric patches that you, and others, stitched up together to create yourself, all those fabric moments, you’d know what I was talking about.
those fabric moments vary in size.
but the fact that you remember them means nothing less than the reality that they are important, because perception is real, and so is your perception of those moments.
I don’t care how real those moments are,
but in the end
when you’re looking at your fabric patches
the faded ones, newly sewn ones, nearly forgotten ones,
all that are mendable and tearable (some more than others) and dyeable-
remember that moments always have the potential
to make it - all the way - into your quilt.
imagine if “beauty”, “beautiful”, and all other synonyms ceased to exist from your vocabulary;
or any vocabulary and language overall.
how much substance would we be left with? can you count it? and it wouldn’t be beautiful, we wouldn’t have to sit there and sigh and look at it. we wouldn’t have to watch the world change and just keep whispering that word to ourselves. But we’d be able to pause a second in our changing of the world and look up and think wow, then put our heads down to do our tasks and remind ourselves later, when we yearn for inspiration, that that gaze up was crazy worth something.
My brother killed himself
on the twenty-eighth Thursday of last year
and I missed four days of work
and my mom wanted to know ‘Why’.
he was always a fan of beauty
but what he did
was not beautiful at all.
And last week I got the news
that one of my good friends from high school
except this time
she’d gone too far
and now she was gone.
And I had a hard time falling asleep at night
and her mother
hugged me tight
and thanked me for coming to the service
but I did not
want to be there at all.
This is not
The girl down the street
would’ve turned 21 last year
and I can scarcely imagine
the wild times she would’ve
But she is buried six feet deep
after falling nearly 300
and she did not leave a note.
This is not
My freshman year of college
and my roommate was beautiful
and how I wanted to be just like her.
But she wore herself down
till she was
and if you blinked
you had to go and find her all over again.
So now her parents are no longer supporting her college tuition
but are paying her hospital bills
watching their daughter crumble.
This is not
So y’all can take your narcissistic
of self harm and eating disorders and committing suicide
and shove them as far up your ass
as you possibly can.
Starvation is not beautiful.
Killing yourself is not beautiful.
is not beautiful.
This note I am writing
is not beautiful.
you are beautiful
and it’s about damn time you start believing it.
you’re not beautiful either, sorry, but at least you are something (and even more if you work for it).
Six simple rituals:
1. Drink a glass of water when you wake up. Your body loses water while you sleep, so you’re naturally dehydrated in the morning. A glass of water when you wake helps start your day fresh.
2. Define your top 3. Every morning ask yourself, “What are the top three most important tasks that I will complete today?” Prioritizes your day accordingly and don’t sleep until the Top 3 are complete.
3. The 50/10 Rule. Solo-task and do more faster by working in 50/10 increments. Use a timer to work for 50 minutes on only one important task with 10 minute breaks in between. Spend your 10 minutes getting away from your desk, going outside, calling friends, meditating, or grabbing a glass of water.
4. Move and sweat daily. Regular movement keeps us healthy and alert. It boosts energy and mood, and relieves stress.
5. Express gratitude. Gratitude fosters happiness. Each morning, think of at least five things you’re thankful for. In times of stress, pause and reflect on these things.
6. Reflect daily. Bring closure to your day through 10 minutes of reflection. Asks yourself, “What went well?” and “What needs improvement?”"